dying young
I find it quite funny (and cute) when the nurses and medical staffs at the Legazpi Eye Center ( Bicol Acces Health, too) give their remarks that I’m too young – for my eye condition.
Funny how we associate old age with degeneration, I mean, yah, ganun naman talaga – we’re born and we’d die – the life lived in between does the difference but it’s just sweet (and weird), you know, being regarded na bata pa – as if telling me that ‘hey you still have things to do – a lot’. Alam mo yun, parang everybody’s got an idea on how to run my life; that I have a lot to offer – and to see.
Fairness, tama sila.
I used to not really understand the context of Veronica in Veronica Decides to Die (a Coelho novel) – but now, I do; while everything else is at its best fit and place – why not bid the world goodbye. I mean, I don’t know if epekto ulit ito ng ‘happyPILL’ ko, but everything seem right again – at kung mamamatay ka, hindi ba’t you’d rather choose the time when things are perfect.
Pero kahit ganun, naiintindihan ko man si Veronica, I really wouldn’t want to die - young . Not this young, not now.
I have been praying for healing – and I can feel that Manoy’s listening. I’m healing and learning lessons to keep on the way; I think ito naman talaga ang purpose as to why I am going through this.
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Journal entry ko the night before my CheckUp
7/27
*disambiguation: threat of CANCER or HIV is low – and improbable (already)
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While was deciding to whether I’m going to post it or not, naalala ko that from now on I wish no more secrets (sort of) no more sides and blind sides kaya I just thought, perhaps, it’s time I embrace this new grace.
dreaming&praying. working life out.
Showing posts with label dancing in the rain. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dancing in the rain. Show all posts
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
dying young
dying young
I find it quite funny (and cute) when the nurses and medical staffs at the Legazpi Eye Center ( Bicol Acces Health, too) give their remarks that I’m too young – for my eye condition.
Funny how we associate old age with degeneration, I mean, yah, ganun naman talaga – we’re born and we’d die – the life lived in between does the difference but it’s just sweet (and weird), you know, being regarded na bata pa – as if telling me that ‘hey you still have things to do – a lot’. Alam mo yun, parang everybody’s got an idea on how to run my life; that I have a lot to offer – and to see.
Fairness, tama sila.
I used to not really understand the context of Veronica in Veronica Decides to Die (a Coelho novel) – but now, I do; while everything else is at its best fit and place – why not bid the world goodbye. I mean, I don’t know if epekto ulit ito ng ‘happyPILL’ ko, but everything seem right again – at kung mamamatay ka, hindi ba’t you’d rather choose the time when things are perfect.
Pero kahit ganun, naiintindihan ko man si Veronica, I really wouldn’t want to die - young . Not this young, not now.
I have been praying for healing – and I can feel that Manoy’s listening. I’m healing and learning lessons to keep on the way; I think ito naman talaga ang purpose as to why I am going through this.
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Journal entry ko the night before my CheckUp
7/27
*disambiguation: threat of CANCER or HIV is low – and improbable (already)
----
While was deciding to whether I’m going to post it or not, naalala ko that from now on I wish no more secrets (sort of) no more sides and blind sides kaya I just thought, perhaps, it’s time I embrace this new grace.
dreaming&praying. working life out.
I find it quite funny (and cute) when the nurses and medical staffs at the Legazpi Eye Center ( Bicol Acces Health, too) give their remarks that I’m too young – for my eye condition.
Funny how we associate old age with degeneration, I mean, yah, ganun naman talaga – we’re born and we’d die – the life lived in between does the difference but it’s just sweet (and weird), you know, being regarded na bata pa – as if telling me that ‘hey you still have things to do – a lot’. Alam mo yun, parang everybody’s got an idea on how to run my life; that I have a lot to offer – and to see.
Fairness, tama sila.
I used to not really understand the context of Veronica in Veronica Decides to Die (a Coelho novel) – but now, I do; while everything else is at its best fit and place – why not bid the world goodbye. I mean, I don’t know if epekto ulit ito ng ‘happyPILL’ ko, but everything seem right again – at kung mamamatay ka, hindi ba’t you’d rather choose the time when things are perfect.
Pero kahit ganun, naiintindihan ko man si Veronica, I really wouldn’t want to die - young . Not this young, not now.
I have been praying for healing – and I can feel that Manoy’s listening. I’m healing and learning lessons to keep on the way; I think ito naman talaga ang purpose as to why I am going through this.
-----
Journal entry ko the night before my CheckUp
7/27
*disambiguation: threat of CANCER or HIV is low – and improbable (already)
----
While was deciding to whether I’m going to post it or not, naalala ko that from now on I wish no more secrets (sort of) no more sides and blind sides kaya I just thought, perhaps, it’s time I embrace this new grace.
dreaming&praying. working life out.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
lesson from my fingers
The hand has five fingers, that is, if you are normal...
you can count one to five with a hand's fingers, but that's not the point today.
I have had recently come across an article by Paulo Coelho written some four or five years ago. He said there are four invisible forces in our lives.
TIME.
POWER.
LOVE.
DEATH.
He made much sense, matter of fact, it has inspired me to reallign my perspective, as you may or may not know, i am currnetly going through some health battles. Though there is a promise of recovery, there exists also a threat, a threat that most people wpuld dread, that I dread. What if.
Anyhow, I'd further discuss those four factors soon, in my future blogs, for now, allow me to share a thought...
LIFE, bound by TIME has always been a journey in search for one's personal PURPOSE, this entails the search for POWER and the ever famous, LOVE, all of which hopefully happen before the end of time, before DEATH.
LIfe is easy, but sometimes it rains so hard we forget that these factors are beyond our capacity to control. POWER, LOVE, TIME, and DEATH except PURPOSE, as though there exist FATE, with real FAITH, one's purpose can be fully shaped as according to our desires, provided though that it doesn't run againsht that universal truth, that there exist order, the ying and the yang, the balance or libra for the west. PURPOSE should first be found, and then shaped.
So, in the menatime, so long as my PURPOSE is clear, so matter how hard the rain may pour, with this lesson from my fingers, I shall delight my self first in dancing in the rain. :)
you can count one to five with a hand's fingers, but that's not the point today.
I have had recently come across an article by Paulo Coelho written some four or five years ago. He said there are four invisible forces in our lives.
TIME.
POWER.
LOVE.
DEATH.
He made much sense, matter of fact, it has inspired me to reallign my perspective, as you may or may not know, i am currnetly going through some health battles. Though there is a promise of recovery, there exists also a threat, a threat that most people wpuld dread, that I dread. What if.
Anyhow, I'd further discuss those four factors soon, in my future blogs, for now, allow me to share a thought...
LIFE, bound by TIME has always been a journey in search for one's personal PURPOSE, this entails the search for POWER and the ever famous, LOVE, all of which hopefully happen before the end of time, before DEATH.
LIfe is easy, but sometimes it rains so hard we forget that these factors are beyond our capacity to control. POWER, LOVE, TIME, and DEATH except PURPOSE, as though there exist FATE, with real FAITH, one's purpose can be fully shaped as according to our desires, provided though that it doesn't run againsht that universal truth, that there exist order, the ying and the yang, the balance or libra for the west. PURPOSE should first be found, and then shaped.
So, in the menatime, so long as my PURPOSE is clear, so matter how hard the rain may pour, with this lesson from my fingers, I shall delight my self first in dancing in the rain. :)
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