dreamt of YOU

19.04.2011

I woke up with a rather sad heart today, kasi naman just when you appeared in my dream early this morning, I was awakened by my stomach (the steroids I am taking requires me to poop, a lot these days) You were you’re usual you, makulit and being candid again because there was a camera, you pushed me and I bit your index, I think, you were doing that Korean hands again. You were wearing red Tee and a black pants, was on a Fedora hat too. I was about to lean on you when I was awaken, hai. I closed my eyes again in the hope to see you in my dream, but to no avail, my stomach’s really upset already.

Over breakfast, my phone provided a rather apt song, TONIGHT.
Then thoughts of you came, at this point in my life when I’m trying to figure out which roads to take, I think it’s cute that you are among the non-negotiable, mga hindi ipagpapalit. But I know though that this love would never be returned, I can only love you more than you can. Though I have to admit that inside, somewhere my little heart, I also pray for a ‘CRAZY LITTLE THING CALLED LOVE’s ending. I have loved you in spite of, and I would continue to. But such same thing, loving me in spite of, I guess would be but a dream. You have plans of your own, and I am but a part of a joke, a cute little joke about people who have fallen for you.

It’s not anymore a secret that I do care, that like pSHONE, I have taken photos to keep too. Hindi ko lang alam kung tulad nya, kaya ko ding ibigay, well I mean, it’s figurative, but yah, telling you as in TELLING YOU, such is a hard thing to do lalo’t higit I don’t also know at what base I might land.

Hai. Anyhow, I love you and I have loved you more than you know. And it’s the only thing that I guess I would continue to do, habang nagiipon ako ng lakas ng loob to either tell you, or para lunurin din and kahibangang ito )

panaginip

i could have been earning now about 100 US dollars per article published, if only the demand in time for writing for an American web page has not been that toxic. i declined the offer to concentrate on my studies, graduation jitters is eating me you know.

but just recently, due to my on-the-job training, i have had my first article published on the net. tapos biglang bumalik yung thought, i really want to pursue writing. i have always wanted to be the next Conrado de Quiros if not a talk show host. hai, sarap mangarap.

http://www.adnu.edu.ph/newsfeatures.asp?qstrID=138