why

As long as there is hope, that means there is still LOVE. – The Love of Siam

It’s almost 11:30 in the morning, I’m still on my sleeping shirt - and I can still smell coffee in my breath.

I have been awake for like three hours now, but I guess part of me is still dreaming. (sigh)

Right after I woke up, I watched again THE LOVE OF SIAM. It’s a Thai movie about family, love and making choices. T’as been also dubbed to be among the best Asian movies to discuss gay love.

I don’t know. But I think I have fallen in love with the characters Tong and Mew. Although more than that, I guess I’m still struck by its ending. Funny because even yesterday I have been thinking about it already, I even wrote on my note book, during class, I just can’t get it, why let go of love so true. And I guess my seatmate saw it when I unintentionally flipped the pages, giving her a good perspective.

Well you see I guess what’s disturbing me is that I thought I knew how the story would end.
Turned out I didn’t. as you know I have always believed in happy ever afters.

Love is a universal conspiracy; it’s when human will and destiny conspires, it’s when time and place schemes. Love doesn’t happen every day, not all couples are really blessed to have experienced love. That is why I have high regard to relationships that obviously falls under this conspiracy.

What Mew and Tong had was real – and even the world around them has been telling them that what they have is worth fighting for – pero bakit sumuko sila?

Why let go of something so true, something so real?

(big sigh)

9/2/2010