mutedSHOUT

Since Aya knows I’m only going to buy my meds, driving my way to Jelato last night (para lang sumaglit at hindi magmukhang KJ) I was running on 110-120kph. It was pretty fast. But no matter how fast I was, the thought of the girl whom I’ve passed by the gasoline station early that night, annoyingly lingers.

So who was this girl?
Well, she has a name but unfortunately I don’t have any idea what it is.
Thing is, the only clear thing was her face – and her tears (and probably her loud whining)

It was her thing that made me drift.
It has been a while since I did really freaked out – roughly three years now, almost four. Although she was crying really out loud, to me it was a movie like scene. A movie clip that made me see thing in a new perspective, sort of.

I was already home when finally I decided to process the thing that it might have triggered. In my ‘emo mode’ I have realized that probably my recent ordeal with the choices I made and the decisions I took hold of lately is causing this.

I wanted to shout, but I didn’t.
I wanted to blame people but I didn’t.
I made my points by simply avoiding making one.

Yun! Finally!
It’s not my nature pala tal’ga to shut up kaya siguro when I saw that girl, I was envious.
I wanted to do exactly what she did. (sigh)

7.40pm 08/29/10