It’s Sunday. The sun is up and yes, hot as usual; but something made my day a bit cold. (sigh)
It was been long since I really did think about this, and I guess it’s been a while that I’m not confronted by this.
But while watchin’ Celebrity Apprentice, a trailer of Star Cinema’s latest installment to their all-about-family movies made it into the ads, and that’s when I found myself drifting.
Spare me from sharing the personal issues I might have gone through (or maybe still am going through) but let me share the lines that somehow made me drift (far) enough to cause this blog.
I don’t know the girl who said this line, but I guess in a way or another, I might be just like her.
“Kilala ko ang mga tulad mo; nagrerebelde ka din ba? Kasi ako, ayoko lang aminin na may hinahanap ako; maski na meron talaga”
What the fuck is with that line that I can’t let it slip away. (grr)
Anyway, alam ko naman na ata ang sagot. Buti na lang Melissa said something like…
“Lage ka na lang bang gan’to? Kasi alam mo it’s either continuously kaawaan mo ang sarili mo or you do something para tangapin ang pamilya mo.”
Shall I say OUCH.
Madami dami na din akong nalaman sa buhay that I guess I may claim that at this point alam ko na din ano talaga dapat kong gawin. But just like the movie’s plot, once somebody leaves you for a long while (as in really really long) it’s not actually that easy to kiss and forget. Madaming mga sugat na I thought naghilom na, apparently the pain killers worked well but not the meds that should have healed it.
But I won’t end up fussing, just as I have said, siguro alam ko na din ang dapat gawin, lalo na’t hindi ko na din kayang dayain pa ang panahon, ngayon pang binibilangan na din nya ako.
I guess I have been playing poker for quite a while now, that I guess I should say tata for now for Imma see my doctor.
8/22/10 1:10pm
ill lift some words from my (rippledPAIN entry)..
ReplyDelete"the way wounds heal is a miracle. inevitably they heal on their own. all we have to do is do not let our hungry egos demand that the pain go away on a certain timetable. we need to have faith that the pain will pass."
-daniel gottlieb-
after leaving home, i learned to relearn some truths about life.. that everything has its own time.. same goes with wounds.. they will heal, sa tamang panahon..
we can only wish that we would learn to forget.. but i guess, forgetting is not really the key.. it is i guess the choice to embrace the truth that will really set us free..
i can continue wishing for an eraser in my head, but i guess again, i have to bear with the struggles and wait for that one day when my sigh would be of peace again..
in the meantime, kagaya ng pinag usapan natin sa flipping coins, alam mo kung ano sinasabi ng sole power source mo, kaya iyon ang panghawakan..
then,
wait for things to unfold..
youll be ok..
tanggapin, yakapin..
sige lang..
para kay yeLLowCAB...
ReplyDeleteaHHHHwwHHH.
i love the message. thnx.
yakapin, yayakapin XDD